Weed confession – I never really put it here that I tend to smoke from time to time. Mind you, my approach to it is either smoke for few days in a row, when I feel it and then not smoke for a while. But, I tend to be like that with everyting in my life, so this is no suprise. I suppose I thought that people would feel against it and as such, wouldn’t wish to be part of this anymore, no matter how small it currently is. But, my conclusion about life right now is that honesty is the best policy.
The thing that I also found that weed can make my brain go in overdrive, thinking more deeply about things than really necessary for anyone who doesn’t like to complicate their lives. Me, for better or worse, do tend to do that. But, what I really wanted to share today is a short confession that I wrote that kinda describes my deeper current mindset which happened when I was high, thus he first paragraph.
I don’t wish to be succesful just,
I want to reach for the stars
Feel how it is to be a star
For she is made of what I am made of.
Not just see the wild waves and pass them through on my way to school
I want to feel them as I feel myself,
Totally and completely.
If that is not fullfilled, the ultimate happiness of living, how can I be happy?
Even if I have a success in business, the joy won’t be full because I would feel the emptiness
That only one with everything
remembering that I am a creator and planets,
birds and oak trees,
all that is, is me, as well.
Light and God,
One and everything.
That I am part of this energy that is everything and all.
It is the ultimate power, the ultimate truth.
And you truly know this,
And once you feel it and know by heart,
Then your conciousness and your mind will automatically know it, as well.
But, knowing intelectually is not all there is.
In fact, it is a lower level of knowing – learned theory, one that you may or may not apply in life and what use is that?
A level that you need, but is not enough.
However, it will happen on its own accord, you will know intelectually of itself if you know it first by feeling it, by breathing it, by living the truth.
Which is a joy to know, for now you can skip thousands of books
Who all tell you in the end the same truth.
Just live and be lived through,
Life wants to flow
Don’t stop it with fear spready by a mad society.
Let yourself live as a god on earth in a sense that what you think you become and that is ultimate godhood and so become true to your heritage.
Only that is the truth.
And only that matters.
We used to forget for we were playing and we wanted to take the play to the next level.
Now, we are stuck in this play for a moment of time.
And once we reach the truth again
We’ll probably want to forget again for it is the nature of play and it is the only way that you can have the illusion of free will and free choice.
Only when you are cut of the whole, or better to say, your mind forgets it is part of the whole, can there be created an illusion of existence as a individual unit, Of self, of a personality that you use to function in this world of society and this form of existence.
But, once you remember, you go back to the universe level. You live and exist purely in the form of energy and there are no desires, no dreams, no past or future, only now.
And that’s why we like to play the game of forgetting.
After all, only in the game can we experience the ups and downs, joys and sorrows, in its illusionist form where everything can be created, from biggest peaks of humanity to worst tragedies that you can imagine and that makes all the fun in the world possible.
It is a bit reformed for the sake of better understanding for I wrote some sentences in the way that are not neither gramatically correct nor much understandable. However, this is something that occupies my mind a lot lately and hopefully, there are some individuals out there that think similary 🙂
Until next time,
Lots of love,